Over the Line, I Stride
Sho (Shouryu LEUNG), who was born a female, always has had a rather masculine personality ever since she could remember. She hated wearing skirts but loved playing robots and swordsmanship. As she was still too young back in the days, she did not ponder on her behaviours, thoughts, and sexuality. In the 80’s when she grew up, there were not many who talked about topics such as “sexual orientation” and “gender identity”, and her relationship with parents was rather estranged, that was why she could not find anyone to confide in. While recalling her puberty, Sho remembers the many awkward situations which she encountered – “My body was maturing back then, and I needed to wear female underwear which was a very unpleasant thing for me.”
After entering secondary school, Sho had begun wearing unisex clothing and had started to grow her interest in the opposite sex. Fortunately, people usually do not gaze oddly at female who put on unisex clothing in the modern society. However, deep down in Sho’s heart, she could not help but wonder “What is my real gender?”, “Am I a lesbian if I like girls?”. Yet, the answers never emerged at the time.
After treading through a period when she doubted her sexuality, Sho then jumped from being a secondary student to an undergraduate and acquainted with a group of friends who enthused about theatre, after which she began expanding her social circle. In 2013, she wrote a script about “gender identity” by which she gained a better understanding of herself and determined that she be a “He”. In the same year, she decided to make a momentous step in life - she visited a psychiatrist and had undergone a psychiatric assessment to seriously consider whether or not she would take a transsexual operation. “I did not know whether I would eventually complete the entire operation because there were so many things at stake, but I was sure that it was a significant experience for me to find myself.”
Since 2013, Sho has undergone psychiatric and psychological assessments, medication and surgeries. During those days, Sho worked as a Japanese language teacher. Not only did she worry about how changing sex would affect her job as well as the relationship with her students, but what worried for most was how to confess to her mother.
Today, although her gender on the Hong Kong identity card remind unchanged, the “He” chooses to live as a transsexual, where would “His” way of life lead?
Producer: Joan Fong
Assistant Producer: Jasper Leung